the day before

and i am anxious.

"I wanna go where the mountains are high enough to echo my song
I wanna go where the rivers run deep enough to drown my shame
I wanna go where the stars shine bright enough to show me the way
I wanna go where the wind calls my name
The wind is calling India India India"

I could be violet sky...

wondering what the answer is
and scared that i might not like it
but more that i don't have a response

rediscovering motown
being ok with sad songs
or maybe not quite all of them

being super excited about teaching law as a social drama
can we say tidewater virginia, class?
and a holy crap I'm teaching on Monday at 7am!

I - can turn a grey sky blue...

Not being crazy
sleep
being sexy

morning wake up calls
evening good night ones as well
and all day conversations

cooking dinner slowly getting it back
wine with a friend
laughter.

quote from the Times

"why do tough, independent-minded women who know they’re smarter than the men around them still end up needing those losers, thus engineering their own disappointment?"

I am me, the universe and U

little league baseball games
even if they were the red soxs
laughter and beds
weighty moments

working out
sore muscles
wanting to go again

writing lectures
potential
new dresses meaning soon to see family

shape

wanting to work out
antibiotics are my heros
cheesy fbi thriller novels

manhattan the kitty
yankees at .500
dammit....firefighters.

chatting with my parents
proofing my first publication
my couch.

well hell...

it's a damn good thing i like firefighters
plural
hehe

off to phoenix
baseball
driving

wondering
whats up
ill find out soon

crack up, flip, flip out, go bananas, go insane, go nuts, lose one's marbles, lose one's reason, lose one's senses, lose one's wits

losin MA mind.
letting go.
holding on...just a little today.

trying to take care
on fire.
baba ghanoush

remembering that matoaka means pocahontas
working out
terrified.

long-term action potentiating

learning you have grown into something new and something you deserve
recognition of strength and power
knowing what you want and what you are willing to accept
learning you have LEARNED

"i've got my philosophy"

dinner with a friend
obtaining a writing buddy-- 10:35 at starbucks!
why do i write:
because i deserve to BE great
and i deserve amazing opportunites
and i can achieve them when i write

a weekend

my Les getting married
lovely friends at a lovely wedding
catching bouquet residuals

recovering
in so many ways
finishing eat pray love and knowing
that i can go back to it any time

my couch
drugs
in thirds

confirmed a cold

george strait
lunch with the blushing bachelorette, friends, and her family
hearts of palm on a patio covered by trees and umbrellies

my bed
and waking up to messages
giving myself permission to stay home
a little fear

And my Dad's 57 years of life.